Fuck you! If you don't care about me!

I have cried so much for you, but you never looked back at me! What is the use of my true love, if you don't understand it! Are you really worth my pure love? You are not even respecting your own pure love that you did to me; then I don't think you deserve it!

So fuck you, if you don't care about my love!!!

It's Great day out side, with full of sadness Inside!!!

The day (14 April) started with a late wake up with  the dissatisfaction of missing the morning prayer before the sunrise. Then throughout the day, it was just remembering of someone from my heart and feeling very upset and helpless about it. The best thing of the day was - I talked to my mother and seek her prayer for me. I went to some small shopping to Backaplan in the afternoon; it was very nice. All the way I remember the same thing again and again; I wanted to go back in time to make things better. But every time, I tried hard myself to be at the present, and tried to keep my feeling pressed. I just hope some better day to come into my life with her love and ever glowing smile. Oh my dear, I miss you every moment! Why is it so hard to stay without you? Are you thinking about me sometime? even for a few seconds? How could you become so cold? And why am I getting more and more into your thoughts?
I am trying hard to be as you like - to be fluent in Swedish; to be gentle, calm and quiet; to be patient. I am going to be a different man now. Is this ever late to be little better? Is this ever late to do things right? Is this ever wrong to keep trying on improving one's limitations? Should one not get a chance to improve and correct? Is there any answer from you? Why are you so quiet? What is wrong with you?
Now can I only hope for some good things to happen with us! May things improve with the coming days and we have a real great summer! And may then we live happily every after - just like a fairytale.

Wishing you all a great, happy & prosperous Bengali New Year 1418!

Today is the first day of Bengali New Year 1418. The day is the 1st day of summer. It's lot of colors a lot of celebration throughout my country Bangladesh. Just open this link and feel some touch and flavor of the day (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ANXjao6sJYE&feature=share). Every Businessman in my country open his account on this very day. We are celebrating this event on the 16 April afternoon with cultural show, presentations and delicious Bengali Food at Chalmers Engineering University, Gothenburg. 

Anyway, last 24 hour was little exciting. I already thought it was Bengali New Year. So I called my mother and sister. Ma was busy with her work at that moment; and my sister said it is today. So, I also had to change my morning schedule. However, it was good that I could do those today. I will go to talk to Education Fair from Gothenburg City at Frölunda Torget today. Well, Like I said my day was little exciting, I danced salsa, bachata and cha cha cha at Oceanen in the evening. I met some nice people there. One of them remembered me, but I could not remember her. When she said her name was Ida, then I could remember her; before I just could remember that she was little familiar. Well, the important thing was I talked 95%-99% Swedish with all I met there. It felt great to practice Swedish. Again I felt sad about the mistake I made recently. But this time I never wished to go back in time and correct it. I wanted to get the best out of it from now. No more repent for the past; no more wishes to go back in time. One thing very valuable come out of my mouth when I talked about the value of time with my room mate. I said, it may not be always true that time is valuable; in some moment of time, 'time' may be valued as no longer valuable. Once the need of 'time' is gone, there is no importance of time. Everyone will feel this thing in some level of their life that time can no longer dominate over them. I am not so sure what I said was correct, but it felt like so.

Well, once again, I wish you all the best for the Bengali New Year 1418.

My first day in blogging!

Although I've seen some blogs, I didn't try it myself. Now I have stepped into the blog wold. So I hope this journey gets exciting as it progresses. I start with a fortune cookies I got from a tea bag. It says, "Your strength is how calmly, quietly and peacefully you face life." This is the real big challenge for me right now. I hope to do what I need to with patience. Another very moving thing for me in just couple of hour was - I firmly determined to learn Swedish to the best level, in shortest possible time. Now I challenge myself on this.