It's Great day out side, with full of sadness Inside!!!

The day (14 April) started with a late wake up with  the dissatisfaction of missing the morning prayer before the sunrise. Then throughout the day, it was just remembering of someone from my heart and feeling very upset and helpless about it. The best thing of the day was - I talked to my mother and seek her prayer for me. I went to some small shopping to Backaplan in the afternoon; it was very nice. All the way I remember the same thing again and again; I wanted to go back in time to make things better. But every time, I tried hard myself to be at the present, and tried to keep my feeling pressed. I just hope some better day to come into my life with her love and ever glowing smile. Oh my dear, I miss you every moment! Why is it so hard to stay without you? Are you thinking about me sometime? even for a few seconds? How could you become so cold? And why am I getting more and more into your thoughts?
I am trying hard to be as you like - to be fluent in Swedish; to be gentle, calm and quiet; to be patient. I am going to be a different man now. Is this ever late to be little better? Is this ever late to do things right? Is this ever wrong to keep trying on improving one's limitations? Should one not get a chance to improve and correct? Is there any answer from you? Why are you so quiet? What is wrong with you?
Now can I only hope for some good things to happen with us! May things improve with the coming days and we have a real great summer! And may then we live happily every after - just like a fairytale.